Sunday, July 24, 2016

Enlightenment

The fire is Her enlightenment;
Her realization of a life wasted
by not loving me.

Praying to me,
my name spelt in smoke
Escaping the blaze of her catacomb.

I breathe the scent of her
our bonds final consommation
deep inside my lungs.

Her fading song
dissipates in carbon dioxide
spinning slowly skyward.


I am Her savior:
Her end;
Her God

Friday, July 22, 2016

Lost god

Voices below
seeking and wanting

life, love, laughter,
murder, misery, mayhem,
romance, respect, repentance,
death, destruction, disease,
purity, prayers, poetry,
wars, weapons, wrath,
friendship, freedom, finances,
chaos, colonization, crusades,
health, harvests, happiness,
travesties, terrorism, torture,
admiration, absolution, atonement,
slavery, supremacy, slaughter;

all in my name.




I no longer listen—
abandoning my creation.

Tuesday, July 19, 2016

Haiku Volume 12

I would like to start today by saying hello. It is good to see you again old blog. Now it has been over three months since I have posted squat on here and that hiatus comes after I lied and said I would be back in this post here, but I really have a good reason for this. . . it is actually the same as all the excuses in this post here. It is actually eerie how all these things are a factor and how little has changed in my life in the year plus since posting that. My job still is wearing me down, I am still single, I miss my bar so damn much (though I do have that bartenders number now) and my wonderful, fantastic, beautiful friend who I spent a lot of time there with. I really miss that girl, but with our schedules it's hard to get together. that and I (her as well) are losers and hate socializing so that doesn't help us in anyway shape or form.


The reason I bring that up is because she was a huge part in me writing a lot, she inspired me and motivated me to keep going: she reminded me all the time how great I could be and I feel like because I am full of self doubt I need that in my life. 

But let's move on to other excuses

I have writers block like a motherf***er these last few months, I haven't written much except for a few mediocre poems. My mind since December has kind of looked like this:
So if any one has any extra quarters please send them my way; it would be much appreciated.

Next excuse? PokemonGo it has taken over the world #teamvalor.

P.s. I need a fucking Meowth ASAP. He is my favorite of favorite Pokemon, also I just want to state I fucking hate Pikachu. I really hate him so much. That is the worst piece of shit ever,


Ok, this was supposed to be a short intro for some little  poems, but it made a left at Albuquerque and ran right into the rambling town of Excuses, Mississippi. so without further ado I present to you some Haiku!!!


I

Grey Storm clouds billow:
pillows of darkness and grief
dripping tears of gods.

II

Feet stomp and stampede
crushing the seed; killing its
dreams to one day bloom.

III

The news blabbers as
bodies drop to the ground. The
soil red with blood.

IV

Life creeps by slowly;
still I can't keep up with it.
Pelted by lemons

V

My past has passed and
that's where you remain; nothing
but a memory.

VI

Dreams of you consume
my mind. Light in the darkness
of my coal toned soul.

VII

Get up and go out!
Run through the tall grass— balls out.
Fuck you Pikachu.

VIII

Tears from an angel
soaking the shoulder of an
enamored devil.


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Friday, April 15, 2016

A Western End

Part 4

Marshal Cummings steps off his horse and pulls out a sandwich Agatha packed for him. He sits on the ground to eat as the sun stands high above in the cloudless sky; the frost has melted and the weather warmed, yet the marshal is filled with an eerie feeling that something will go wrong when he reaches the Kindel Gang. Something as awful as the first time he encountered one of the Kindel boys long before he was the law in Red Creek— long before there was a Kindel Gang. Before Shelby led a rampage throughout the American West. Before the name Kindel was synonymous with violence and robberies throughout the godless west.
Storm clouds were rolling into lower Manhattan: an area the marshal hated to go but being as it was a nearly lawless place most of the fugitives that he hunted fled to. He enlisted help from his friend and newly appointed copper, Charles McMurphy, an Irish immigrant who was turned copper when Albany sent down the order to for an organized state-run police force known as the ‘Metropolitans’ that was supposed to replace city run ‘Municipals’. Mcmurphy was a tall thin Irishman, with thick black hair which appeared darker against his pale skin.
“Good ta see ya boyo!” McMurphy smiled and greeted his old friend with a handshake and hug. “Now, let’s get to business. Tha man ya be lookin’ for was seen at tha Ole Brewery.”
“Well, I think it wise for you to not go in there, being as you are in uniform.”
“Aye, ya be right boyo. I’ll walk me route while ya head in an’ fin’ ya man.”
“Thanks for the tip McMurphy, If I am not out soon come find me.”
McMurphy walked around the corner and Marshal Cummings headed into the Old Brewery. His stomach was tied in knots and his heart pounding. The smell of feces and sweat mixed with the scent of rotting flesh. The marshal walked through the halls, looking through every door and down every hall trying to look for the man on the wanted poster back in his office; a man wanted for the murder of a New Jersey man a year and a half prior. Matthew Kindel, a brown haired gray-eyed 24-year-old with a scar across his forehead and a slight limp in his left leg from a fight with other workers in a Paterson mill when he was younger.
Women were having sex out in the open, men divided spoils of robberies, blacks and whites smoked opium together, but no sign of Kindel.
The sun was fading when Marshal Cummings stepped back out into the crowded slum streets. He finally took a deep breath escaping from the wretched air in the Old Brewery, though the scents of the streets weren’t much better.
He found Mcmurphy across the street being harassed by a couple of men from the local Dead Rabbits gang. Marshal Cummings drew his gun and crossed the street. He grabbed the fattest one, whose weight made him a little too slow to escape, by the shirt collar and pressed him against the wall. He put his Colt Peacemaker underneath his crooked nose.
“I see you find it good sport to harass people of the law?”
Instead of answering with his words the pudgy street tough spat in the marshal’s face. Harold reacted by smashing his head into the thug’s forehead.
“Aye, let him be.”
Harold let go of the boy causing him to drop to the ground. He knelt down by the boy who was rolling on the ground in pain.
“Sorry about that, I just thought maybe you could tell me where to find a man named Matthew Kindel. He is known to be running with the scum around here.” The boy remained silent, “Well, if you do see him please let him know that U.S. Marshal Cummings is looking for him.”
The two lawmen left the Five Points and headed back up toward the 6th ward police station on Franklin street.
“Aye, we can try again in tha mornin’, we’ll get him ‘fore long.”
Mcmurphy made his way up the steps into the station house and Marshal Cummings headed over a few blocks to his apartment off of West Broadway.
He had an uneasy feeling of being followed, but he turned and saw nothing suspicious. He entered the building and walked up to his apartment. The scent of potatoes and roasted chicken filled the tiny one bedroom residence. Marshal Cummings walked in and greeted his wife, a red-haired Irish immigrant he met a year prior. Her hair was up in a bun supported with a simple blue ribbon that matched her checkered dress.  She kissed her husband as he sat down at the small kitchen table. She placed a plate with a baked potato and chicken breast. She placed another dish to his left and she took a seat to his right with a plate.
A young boy with his mother’s freckles and his father’s blue eyes walked in from the bedroom and sat down. He smiled up at his father and began eating his dinner.
“Are ya done for tha day darlin’?” His wife spoke softly.
“No, I need to head back to Five Points and find this fugitive before he does more damage.”
His wife reached over and placed her hand over the back of his.
“Just come home safe pops, I got to show ya somethin’.” His son smiled without ever looking up from his plate.
They finished the meal in silence. Marshal Cummings said goodnight to his family and headed back out into the stifling humidity that consumed the Manhattan night. He walked back down to the Old Brewery not knowing what awaited him. The place was dangerous during the day, but under the cover of a clouded night sky it grew much worse. He stopped under a streetlight to make sure his Colt 1851 Navy revolver was fully loaded. His hand was shaking, his nerves always seemed to get to him when facing the unknown.
He crossed the street and entered the dilapidated slum. The foul stench from earlier in the day was only intensified with the brewery now overflowing with the city’s poor and insane. He climbed over bodies that were either dead or too drugged to even notice his presence.
He once again searched the bowels of the Old brewery to no avail: his target wasn't there. He climbed over the motionless meat sacks back out to the sewage covered streets of the Five Points. The city air was stagnate and the sky north of the ghetto glowed an eerie orange. The sounds of screaming women and yelling men echoed through the caverns of buildings.
Harold’s stomach sank.
He ran through the streets pushing past gawking spectators watching two teams of firefighters fighting one another while a building burned: the marshal’s apartment building.
Harold screamed for his wife and son when scanning the crowd for their freckled cheeks. Someone tapped on his shoulder bringing a sense of relief over him, but it quickly dissipated when he turned around to see a pale redheaded girl staring up at him.
“Dey, not out here Marshal. I don’ thin’ dey came out.”
The Marshal turned back to the blaze where the firefighters were still throwing punches in the streets, the only people going in and out of the inferno were a group of Dead Rabbits looting the place. Harold rushed past the brawling firefighters and into the apartment.
Flames were all around him as he bolted up two stories of stairs to his apartment. The door was rigged with rope so it would remain closed regardless of how much someone on the inside tried to pull the door open. He untied the rope and rushed into his apartment.
He found his family lying motionless on the floor behind the door, his wife holding his son and his son gripping a piece of paper close to his chest. Harold tossed his wife over one shoulder and his son over the other and he carried them back through the fire and out into the humid streets where one fire company finally began dousing the fire and looting as the other one fled the scene hoping for another inferno.
The fire illuminated the scene: Harold coughed as a crowd began to gather around him. He held his family close to his body looking at the faces in the crowd as tears rolled down his eyes.
“I see’s who done it.” A child’s voice spoke out above the sound of yelling firefighters and burning city block. Marshal Cummings couldn’t see who was speaking to him through his water filled eyes, but he listened, “It was two kids, dey rans back to five points. One of em had a limp an’ da otha was a short fat man wit a beard an’ a real funny nose an’ a gash on his head.”
His mind wandered back to the young dead thug that was on the receiving end of his ferocious headbutt. Marshal Cummings stood up leaving his family in the street. He pulled out his revolver making his way past the crowd and down the street back into the depths of the Five Points.
He could hear footsteps pounding the street from behind him; he turned and pointed his weapon. Officer McMurphy stood with his arms in the air.
“Aye, it's me, laddie. Put it down, for now, I can’t let ya go on there alone.” Mcmurphy took the copper badge off his chest and slid it in his pocket. “Tonigh’ I’m not tha law.”
Marshal Cummings dropped his gun and shook his friend’s hand. Together they began the trek back to the Five Points.
The slowed down when they neared the Old Brewery and stood across the street in a unlit part of the street where they watched group of five men under a street light rolling dice: one of them had a distinct nose and another had a face the Marshal had etched in his memory and on each of the six bullets in his weapon.
“Now let’s not get carried away, we here fo one man an’ one man only.”
Marshal Cummings ignored his friend’s words and started across the street with his weapon drawn.
“Shit!” One of the kids on the corner screams seeing the approaching lawmen “Get out of here!” The group began to run in different directions.
One of them, one with a pronounced limp, ran toward the Old Brewery. Marshal Cummings fired his weapon hitting the cobblestone street behind the running arsonist. The kid took a peak of over his shoulder to see who was firing at him. The face he saw he thought he had disposed of in a boxed inferno.
Kindel tried to outrun the bullets that were ricocheting all around him, but his limp could not carry him to safety before a bullet ripped through the back of his good leg blowing his kneecap all over the street.
Harold approached with his gun pointing at his family’s murderer as the kid’s blood glistened in the moonlight that now broke through the gray clouds. Kindel tried to drag himself into the old brewery, but before he could creep along the sidewalk the marshal’s foot stomped onto what remained of the back of his knee which was nothing more than a pool of blood and a couple of tendons hanging loosely connecting his thigh to his calf.
“Going somewhere?” The marshal voice shook. “Turn around.” Harold filled the empty chambers of his pistol with steel to steal Kindel’s life.
A gunshot echoed through the streets breaking the near silence. A second gunshot rang out and footsteps clanked the streets headed toward the marshal. Kindel twisted his head around to face the barrel of the marshal’s Colt 1851 Navy.
“A woman. . . A child,” the marshal paused choking back his feelings, “a fucking child.” Harold pulled the hammer back on his pistol.
“Marshal, the otha one be dead. He shot me in tha arm,” Officer McMurphy ran clutching his right shoulder as blood poured out between his fingers. “But I got him righ’ in tha heart.”
“This one is not going to get the same fate.” The marshal holstered his pistol, “This one will sit in the gallows and the city will watch him hang.” Harold took his foot off Kindel’s leg and walked into the moonlight, not sure where to go next.
He could hear McMurphy talk to Kindel as he dragged him along to the police station.
He could still hear him. He could still hear his first family laughing at Sunday dinner in the wind rushing down from the mountains whipping through the plains. He takes off his hat and pulls a slip of paper from its brim and unfolds it. Tears drip down onto the sketch of him his son drew the same one his son had clutched to his chest as he died. It is at times like this that the marshal wishes he had pulled the trigger on that fateful night.

His thoughts are interrupted by the sound of a horse’s gallop over the frozen ground. His heart races as he removes his Colt Peacemaker from its holster and turns to face the oncoming horse.

Tuesday, March 22, 2016

Haiku Volume 11

Good morning folk, or good afternoon I guess that would depend on when you are reading this. Well Happy day to you whatever time it is  I hope it will/has been a great one for you. I know as I type this I have a wonderful day of working looming over me like Donald Trumps giant wall. Its a big wall, a wall so big, he knows walls OK. No one knows walls like the Donald, and who is going to pay for that wall??? No one, because it is a fucking ludicrous idea that makes zero sense especially when we as a nation of a debt in the fucking Trillions. This whole election, from both sides, is the most ridiculous thing I have ever witnessed, but this is for a day closer to election day.

Anyway moving on.

I also want to take a moment here to congratulate one of my best friends Christina on her engagement! I am super excited and happy for you. I cannot wait to celebrate your engagement by getting white girl wasted, which is what I plan on doing at your wedding, though with far more dancing! I would post a picture of us, but if I posted one without her approval she would stab me in the eye socket especially because she would hate the chose so instead here is a GIF of how excited I am:
Now while I finish part 4 of A Western End (it is in the editing stage now), start another edition of my movies post, and create a new series about Hip Hop lyricists, I bring to you another volume of Haiku (I am compiling these and other Haiku together to create a book called Hey Look Its Haiku and Some Essays About Life, by Dan Perrucci! (Yeah the title is a haiku and yeah I am awesome. Thanks for thinking so as well!)
I
Steel flies through the cold:
a country torn apart by
a forgotten war.

II
Explosions downtown,
but the world doesn't care when
the victims are brown.

III
Innocent police
killed in the line of duty
Human lives matter.

IV
Police gunfire bangs
innocent citizens killed:
Human lives matter.

V
Flowers start to bloom
shedding winter from their soul.
Sprung from death to life.

VI
The lights slowly dim
until darkness: my thoughts creep
leaving me restless.

VII
Red beating muscle
pumping life;slowly breaking
now unmendable.

VIII
Wind gushes through trees
swaying the branches gently
as green buds awake.

IX
My alarm clock blares
as the morning sun creeps in
I refuse to wake.

X
The sun's still asleep
as a loud meow echos:

“Feed me NOW human!”



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Volume 1

Monday, February 22, 2016

A Western End

part 1, part 2, part 4, part 5

Part 3
The sound of a crackling of fire fills a small two bedroom farmhouse on the outskirts of Red Creek where Agatha Cummings, a short white haired woman with a face that has yet to show signs of age, stands over the pan of eggs and bacon. She pulls the food off the old stove top and brings it over to the table. She wipes her hands on the white apron that protects her blue dress from the grease of breakfast.
“Elliot, Elba! Come get it.”
Elba, a young blonde girl with Bible tucked under her arm dressed in a similar blue dress as her mother with a, comes in from the porch. She takes a seat at the table, opens up the Bible and begins scanning through the pages.
“Where’s your brother?”
“I not sure mama.” She stops on a page and starts mouthing the words to herself, underlining each word with her pointer finger, “I think he was out feedin’ the chickens.”
“Go out and fetch him.”
“But mama I’m readin’!” Elba began to huff and puff.
“No buts, go an’ get him. Ya wouldn’t be acting this way if your Papa was home.”
Elba stands and runs outside shouting for her brother. He doesn’t answer. She walks around to the chicken coup, “Elliot! Where are you brotha? Mama gonna be mad, ya may even get a whippin’!” Elba laughs, mama never gives her a whipping. She spends her days cleaning the house and reading the Bible, wishing she could fight lions and live in a land far away like Daniel. ‘Oh, how fun and exciting that would be,’ she always thinks.
She comes back alone.
“Where is Elliot?”
“I don’t know mama, but one of tha horses is gone.”
Agatha runs out of the house toward the stable, “Elliot!” One of the horses indeed was gone. She returns to the house with tears rushing from her eyes.
“Where he go mama?”
“Probably to go and find ya, papa.” She put her head into her hands, “Nothing we can do now but pray.”
“Dear God,” Elba begins, “Please watch ova my stupid brotha and my papa. Make sure they come home safe to protect me and mama. Amen.” She forms the sign of the cross with her right hand. “Good mama?”
“Good.” Agatha lifts her head from her hands and grabs her daughter’s hand.
“Why didn’t papa have some men with him? Why did he go all alone mama?”
“Your papa isn’t liked here anymore.”
“Why not?”
“He killed a bad man and the town didn’t like that.”
“But if the man was bad why don’t the town like it mama?”
“Cause he was one of them and papa is from outside.” Agatha serves her daughter breakfast. Elba starts eating, Agatha continues, “The man was wanted for some things he did when he went out to Chicago, and your father being the law here had to go arrest him.”
“But papa killed him?”
“Papa went out to the Sloane house and,”
“Where’s the Sloane house?” Elba interjects.
“It’s ‘bout 50 miles to the east, anyway papa rode out there to arrest him, but when he got there Mr. Sloane shot at him and killed ya papa’s horse and ya dad got hurt bad when the horse fell dead. Ya, papa took his rifle and sent that evil man to the hell that ya read about in that book.” Agatha stands up and walks over to the front window. The high mountains loom off in the horizon, she starts to cry again as she thinks of her only son out there alone.
“Elliot an’ papa will be home for ya know it mama; I prayed, so God an’ Jesus will watch ova them.” Elba walks over to her mother and grabs her arm leading her back to the table, “Sit and eat breakfast” She serves her mother breakfast and returns to the pages of the Bible hoping that her belief in those centuries-old words will protect her father and brother, but her mother knows that the west is godless, so she eats in fear.
A fear she tried to escape from by coming to Red Creek. A fear of losing everyone she holds dear.
She thinks back to a hot September morning many years ago; fog crept in from the Tennessee River as she stared out her bedroom window over dew soaked cotton fields that stretched out below her. She could hear a whip cracking off in the distance﹘ a sound that always brought a shiver down her spine. It meant that somewhere out in those fields her brother was ripping a slave’s back raw. It was sound she despised, but as much as she pleaded with her brother to stop the whippings and free the dozens of slaves working on the plantation she knew he would never allow that.
She walked downstairs and out onto the porch as a cool breeze blew carrying with it the sound of hundreds of voices. The voices grew louder and she could hear the wheels of wagons and the hooves of horses tramping over the road leading to the plantation. Her brother, Tom, came out from the fields atop his white horse as two uniformed men rode up to the great house. A large number of disheveled men waited outside the main gate.
“Ma’am,” one of the men began to speak as he tilted his hat toward Agatha, “My name is General William Rosecrans, my men need a place to rest for a few hours. I hope that you do not mind them taking residence outside of your home for a spell.” He smiled as he stepped down from his horse, “And me and my officers will take up some space in the dining room or study and have a cup a coffee if you do not mind any.”
Tom stepped off of his horse and walked toward the general. Rosecrans removed his white gloves and extended his hand toward Tom. Tom did meet it with a handshake, “Ya gonna stay here cause you got all them men with all them guns, but you will not be welcome.” Tom mounted his steed and rode back into the fields.
Rosecrans tried to hide his anger with a fake smile. He watched as Tom went back to the field where he immediately began yelling and whipping down a young slave.
“I apologize for my brotha General, he isn't an avid supporter of you Union folk.”
“And you ma'am?” He questioned
“I wish this war would jus’ end,” Agatha stared out over the field and watched as her brother took the whip to Lyle, one of the young slaves. Agatha always felt something for the slaves, especially poor Lyle; who her brother treated worse than most. “I wish the violence would stop.”
“I assure once we claim victory this pointless violence will cease,” Rosecrans spoke as he listened to the crack of a nine tails against human flesh.
Agatha waved to a couple of the female housekeepers and had them lead General Rosecrans and his officers into the great house. She followed them in as the sound of ripping skin echoed over the cotton fields.
A few hours past Agatha was knitting in the study when Tom began yelling in the dining room below. Shouting that was followed by the sound of a gunshot. Agatha threw her knitting to the floor and sprinted down the stairs into the foray. Another gunshot echoed through the house.
She entered the lobby as two Union soldiers rushed past her and out the front door. Agatha walked into the dining room where a Union officer sat face down in a piece of white cake; his blood dripping onto the floor. Tom sat across the table with his hand on his chest, blood spilling over his fingers.
“Fuck.” He sputtered, “Bastard shot me. You best run sister, I killed that one,” he motioned his head toward the dead Union officer “an’ lord knows they ain’t gonna take it too well.”
Agatha stepped closer to her brother and cupped her hands on her mouth.
“We ain’t got time for a goodbye,” he coughed spitting up a tiny bit of blood, “Just get a suitcase an’ leave this place, it ain’t safe.”
Agatha rushed out of the dining room, back upstairs past the study, and into her room. She grabbed a few dresses and shoved them into a suitcase. She could hear Tom speaking when another gunshot rang out, then her brother’s voice was gone. tears welled up in her eyes as loud footsteps began pounding the blue ash floors, which was followed by the crackling of a raging fire. Smoke began to seep through the cracks in the floor. Agatha grabbed her suitcase and ran down the back stairs.
She ran across the yard to the stable, she could hear gunshots echoing behind her, but she didn’t know who they were shooting at until she saw the bullets impacting the stable walls: she ran faster.
She hopped on a horse that was to be saddled and ready for a trip her brother was supposed to take into town. She rode the horse west and tried not to look back.
Now she sits hoping her husband would ride back east alive with Elliot by his side bringing their laughter back to the home to replace her pacing footsteps and Elba’s incisive praying.

Tuesday, February 16, 2016

Haiku Volume 10

I haven't posted any Haiku since volume 9 back in the year 2015, but today as Haikuesday winds down I return with some more Japanese poetry for your mind to digest. I am just so glad to be back writing these, they are so much fun.
After writing these I realized most are not light hearted, so you can picture where my mind is right now. It sure is not in a place to finish Slothcano which kind of pisses me off, but such is the world in my mind. Regardless of the subject matter in these little ditties I hope you enjoy, but if you don't enjoy them my advice as always is just


I
Glum skies open up.
Hail batters the concrete rose:
death in the ghetto.

II
A shallow hole dug;
dirt tossed hastily over.
Silenced forever.

III
A ringing cellphone
is ignored as thunder claps:
one final needle.

IV
Red hearts and flowers
dying slowly in vases.
Hallmark bathes in cash.

V
Poison flowing free
ignored by politicians
slow death to a town.

VI
Orange faced buffoon
spewing hate to the masses
cheered by idiots.

VII
Down the rabbit hole
traveling the maze alone
in hopes you appear.


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Volume 1